Things don’t seem to be work out rigth lately..everything just don’t feel right.i am now tired.The calling and vision that God gave me started to become blur..i can’t see them now..kinda afraid.
And missed that so much the same time.Feel like i stop to practice my spiritual gift..is like everything stopped functioning..I wanted to do it but feel so heavy even to take a step..I keep on asking myself asking why why why? why this happen to me?I never give up on things tat i'm doing, just that i had put myself fully in to things but ..faded up..
I feel so hard to have that faith to continue on. Maybe i need a rest…I keep on miss home, keep on wanna go back home, i wanna have a holiday break, i wanna go overseas to have holiday...
I believe God never let me bear burden that over my strength. ALot ppl told me tat He still loves me, He still dere with me. But wat I feel now, I cant feel him like last time, My spiritual life has fall down…Miss Him so much yet feel so far..I know i have no time to waste,But i really feel so lost..
Now my cg i really dunno i really dunno what is happenning now, so many different things, things changed in a sudden. Uni Cg or Py cg which one?? which one?? which one m i goin to choose??? I dunno what m i suppose to do... I don wan to do things half way....I'm scared ! I'm scared i cant pass up anything went judgement! I'm scared of the Judgement God!!!
I dunno what m i suppose to do anymore!! This is not i wanna be, i wanna change myself, change to a new me, i wanna hit my cg target. Seriously, i keep on praying God would change me alwayss.. change to a new me -n- a better me....
It have been months, i feel that until now i still not yet recover.... at least i noe i'm cold now.. God i really need ur help -n- strength to raise me up. Change me ! change me! I give my whole heart to u, Give me my uni! Give me my uni! this is my prayer to u.
s t e P s ~
- LCharmaine
- Damansara, Selangor, Malaysia
- "Before I formed you in the womb I knew" you, before you were born I set you apart; ..... ( Jeremiah 1:5 ) I'm just an ordinary girl bt is special in God's eyes!!
Monday, November 3, 2008
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
The Desert Song
This is my prayer in the desert,
When all that's within me feels dry,
This is my prayer in my hunger and need,
My God is the God who provides,
And this is my prayer in the fire,
In weakness, or trial, or pain,
There is a faith proved more worth than gold,
So refine me Lord through the flame,
Chorus:
I will bring praise,
I will bring praise,
No weapon formed against me shall remain,
I will rejoice, I will declare,
God is my victory and He is here,
This is my prayer in the battle,
When triumph is still on its way,
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ,
So firm on his promise I'll stand,
(repeat Chorus)
All of my life, in every season,
You are still God,
I have a reason to sing,
I have a reason to worship,
(repeat Chorus)
And this is my prayer in the harvest,
When favour and providence flow,
I know I'm filled to be emptied again,
The seed I receive I will sow
When all that's within me feels dry,
This is my prayer in my hunger and need,
My God is the God who provides,
And this is my prayer in the fire,
In weakness, or trial, or pain,
There is a faith proved more worth than gold,
So refine me Lord through the flame,
Chorus:
I will bring praise,
I will bring praise,
No weapon formed against me shall remain,
I will rejoice, I will declare,
God is my victory and He is here,
This is my prayer in the battle,
When triumph is still on its way,
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ,
So firm on his promise I'll stand,
(repeat Chorus)
All of my life, in every season,
You are still God,
I have a reason to sing,
I have a reason to worship,
(repeat Chorus)
And this is my prayer in the harvest,
When favour and providence flow,
I know I'm filled to be emptied again,
The seed I receive I will sow
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Tears -n- Pain
They are the One who always there for ME...!! Love Ya... =)Assignments Assignments Assignments....!!!!!!!!
Argghhh... is freaking busy, all the assignments are not easy...
I wanna have a holiday break
If caan I would wish to go to overseas to have a holiday break
It's Stress n frustrated....!!!!
I really need someone to feed me again in my spiritual life...
It's tough to go through...
Feeling so painful this few months...
Praying to have a breakthough.
I wanna change myself,
I wanna change all my bad habits away...
I dont wanna fall into the world temptation.
Have Faith in The Lord -n- u will overcome it!! Because God is Faithful.
Argghhh... is freaking busy, all the assignments are not easy...
I wanna have a holiday break
If caan I would wish to go to overseas to have a holiday break
It's Stress n frustrated....!!!!
I really need someone to feed me again in my spiritual life...
It's tough to go through...
Feeling so painful this few months...
Praying to have a breakthough.
I wanna change myself,
I wanna change all my bad habits away...
I dont wanna fall into the world temptation.
Have Faith in The Lord -n- u will overcome it!! Because God is Faithful.
This is what my youth leader told me...
BE a Leader You must be less sensitive to REJECTION -n- DISSAPOINTMENT.
This is what my youth Pastor Told me.
ALthough their told me alots of times, but i still remember it.. when i face any problems their words really encourage me..
Last week My friend Pearl is celebrating her birthday at Eevonn's house.
When i called her n wished her, n i noe tat dey were at eevonn's home.. tat time i feel tat i'm at home... I feel my home sweet home... My eyes straight away burst into tears
They shared their happy moments wif me.. n its toucheed... they knew that what m i facing now. they gimme strength n hold me thight always.. n dey sang the song " .... accompany you laugh, accompany cry...... seriously.. i cried.. i miss dem so much...
Sunday, October 12, 2008
Amazing Love
Wow, i read dis email fr 1 of my fren.. it's really touched my heart...
It is God's love that lead me through all these year... I cant imagine where would i be without His Love... His Love is so amazing to everyon2 of us
Jesus Loves U all !!
What Equals 100%?
What does it mean to give MORE than 100%?
Ever wonder about those people who say they are giving more than 100%?
We have all been in situations where someone wants you toGIVE OVER 100%.
How about ACHIEVING 101%?
What equals 100% in life?
Here's a little mathematical formula that might helpanswer these questions.
Ever wonder about those people who say they are giving more than 100%?
We have all been in situations where someone wants you toGIVE OVER 100%.
How about ACHIEVING 101%?
What equals 100% in life?
Here's a little mathematical formula that might helpanswer these questions.
If:
A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z
Is represented as:
1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26.
If:
H-A-R-D-W-O-R- K 8+1+18+4+23+15+18+11 = 98%
And:
K-N-O-W-L-E- D-G-E 11+14+15+23+12+5+4+7+5 = 96%
But:
A-T-T-I-T-U-D-E 1+20+20+9+20+21+4+5 = 100%
THEN, look how far the love of God will take you:
L-O-V-E-O-F-G-O-D 12+15+22+5+15+6+7+15+4 = 101%
Therefore, one can conclude with mathematical certainty that:
While Hard Work and Knowledge will get you close, and Attitude willget you there, It's the Love of God that will put you over the top!
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Who am I......???
Who am I?
That the Lord of all the earth,
Would care to know my name,
Would care to feel my hurt.
Who am I?
That the bright and morning star,
Would choose to light the way,
For my ever wandering heart.
Not because of who I am,
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who you are.
I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours.
Who am I?
That the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
And watch me rise again.
Who am I?
That the voice that calmed the sea,
Would call out through the rain,
And calm the storm in me.
I am yours.
Whom shall I fear?
Whom shall I fear?
'Cause I am yours.
I am yours.
That the Lord of all the earth,
Would care to know my name,
Would care to feel my hurt.
Who am I?
That the bright and morning star,
Would choose to light the way,
For my ever wandering heart.
Not because of who I am,
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who you are.
I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours.
Who am I?
That the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
And watch me rise again.
Who am I?
That the voice that calmed the sea,
Would call out through the rain,
And calm the storm in me.
I am yours.
Whom shall I fear?
Whom shall I fear?
'Cause I am yours.
I am yours.
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
All that I am
Spirit fill this place
From the depth of my heart
I cry out to you.
Search me oh God,as the light of your worddraws me closer to you
I surrender to you lord
all that I am.
All that I have,
I give it to you.
In you presence I dwell
all that I am.
All that i have,
It is in you
Like the desert my soul thirsts for you.
Let your healing water flow.
I am broken at your feet oh GodFather take everything in me
All I want is in You.
From the depth of my heart
I cry out to you.
Search me oh God,as the light of your worddraws me closer to you
I surrender to you lord
all that I am.
All that I have,
I give it to you.
In you presence I dwell
all that I am.
All that i have,
It is in you
Like the desert my soul thirsts for you.
Let your healing water flow.
I am broken at your feet oh GodFather take everything in me
All I want is in You.
We are His hearts!!
We are His hearts - Ray Boltz
Their lonely eyes stare out
From the houses on my street
Sometimes I turn away
Before it starts to bother me
But this time something's wrong
I must have watched too long
I can't erase their faces
From my mind
CHORUS:
We are His heart
Is His heart beating?
We are His hands
Are His hands reaching?
When will we realize
That you and I
Must do our part?
It's time to start
We are His heart
Two thousand years ago
Upon a distant hill
A little boy gave all he had
And multitudes were filled
Where is that child today
Who gave it all away?
Where is that love?
We cannot let it die
CHORUS
Hands reach
Reaching out in desperation
In a dying world
Their lonely voices cry
I hear a heart beat
I can feel it growing stronger
We've got to reach out to them
We just can't turn away again
Where is that love?
We cannot let them die
Their lonely eyes stare out
From the houses on my street
Sometimes I turn away
Before it starts to bother me
But this time something's wrong
I must have watched too long
I can't erase their faces
From my mind
CHORUS:
We are His heart
Is His heart beating?
We are His hands
Are His hands reaching?
When will we realize
That you and I
Must do our part?
It's time to start
We are His heart
Two thousand years ago
Upon a distant hill
A little boy gave all he had
And multitudes were filled
Where is that child today
Who gave it all away?
Where is that love?
We cannot let it die
CHORUS
Hands reach
Reaching out in desperation
In a dying world
Their lonely voices cry
I hear a heart beat
I can feel it growing stronger
We've got to reach out to them
We just can't turn away again
Where is that love?
We cannot let them die
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
=)
ok.. hv been a few weeks i didn;t write it..
Pheww... after the 54C conference... everyone life has changed... they bringing bck their fire 2 their states... hope that everyyear... da people who attending the 54C conference will be increasing... =) Continue ur fire guyss... Revival is here now... Malaysia will be different...It's time for repentance!!! we need 2 search for a new name.. n step out of our oldself.,to change our life, we gonna to have a better life.. cozz we hv Jesus, we are different.. AMEN!!!
ERmmm now..actually.. i'm lack confidence of myself.. i dunno how 2 say... i'm worried of my 3rd sem results.. seriously... i'm worried of my business law -n- marketing communication..!!!
i dunno how 2 describe my feeling bout it... i noe result will be out i'm seriously scared!!! oh no...!! i feel like crying bout it.. bt i cant cry out..
juz now i read da bible ... all i read bout is bout da end times. The time of judgement is getting nearer -n- nearer i'm scared bout da judgement days... Time is getting nearer, we can c earthquakes happening, famines and pestilences in various places, and fearful events and great signs from heaven.
"There will be signs in the sun, moon and stars. On the earth, nations will be in anguish and perplexity at the roaring and tossing of the sea. Men will faint from terror, apprehensive of what is coming on the world, for the heavenly bodies will be shaken. At that time they will see Son of Man coming in a cloud with power and great glory. When these things begin to take place, standup and lift up your heads, because your redemption is drawing near (Luke 21:25-28)
"I tell you the truth, this generation will be certainly not pass away until all these things have happened. Heaven and earth will pass away, but my words will never pass away. (Luke 21:32-33)
"Be careful, or your eharts will be weighed down with dissipation, drunkenness and the anxieties of life, and that day will close on you unexpectedly like a trap. for it will come upon all those who live on the face of the whole earth. (Luke 21:34-35)
Be always on the watch, and pray that you may able to escape all that is about to happen, and that you may be able to stand before the Son of Man (Luke 21:36)
Jesus Loves You!!! Those who believe in Lord Jesus Christ! He will give u eternal life!!! Accept him as a Lord of Saviour!!! =) May God BLess u all aLwayss..!!
Pheww... after the 54C conference... everyone life has changed... they bringing bck their fire 2 their states... hope that everyyear... da people who attending the 54C conference will be increasing... =) Continue ur fire guyss... Revival is here now... Malaysia will be different...It's time for repentance!!! we need 2 search for a new name.. n step out of our oldself.,to change our life, we gonna to have a better life.. cozz we hv Jesus, we are different.. AMEN!!!
ERmmm now..actually.. i'm lack confidence of myself.. i dunno how 2 say... i'm worried of my 3rd sem results.. seriously... i'm worried of my business law -n- marketing communication..!!!
i dunno how 2 describe my feeling bout it... i noe result will be out i'm seriously scared!!! oh no...!! i feel like crying bout it.. bt i cant cry out..
juz now i read da bible ... all i read bout is bout da end times. The time of judgement is getting nearer -n- nearer i'm scared bout da judgement days... Time is getting nearer, we can c earthquakes happening, famines and pestilences in various places, and fearful events and great signs from heaven.
"There will be signs in the sun, moon and stars. On the earth, nations will be in anguish and perplexity at the roaring and tossing of the sea. Men will faint from terror, apprehensive of what is coming on the world, for the heavenly bodies will be shaken. At that time they will see Son of Man coming in a cloud with power and great glory. When these things begin to take place, standup and lift up your heads, because your redemption is drawing near (Luke 21:25-28)
"I tell you the truth, this generation will be certainly not pass away until all these things have happened. Heaven and earth will pass away, but my words will never pass away. (Luke 21:32-33)
"Be careful, or your eharts will be weighed down with dissipation, drunkenness and the anxieties of life, and that day will close on you unexpectedly like a trap. for it will come upon all those who live on the face of the whole earth. (Luke 21:34-35)
Be always on the watch, and pray that you may able to escape all that is about to happen, and that you may be able to stand before the Son of Man (Luke 21:36)
Jesus Loves You!!! Those who believe in Lord Jesus Christ! He will give u eternal life!!! Accept him as a Lord of Saviour!!! =) May God BLess u all aLwayss..!!
Friday, August 15, 2008
would it ruin ???
okok...now watt..?? i'm very confused of dis!! a person told u tat she or he nv involve in a relationship bt den alot ppl saw dem at da shopping complex, did wat those couples usually did n den both of dem said no...
2day some1 called me n told me she is sure both of dem r in a relationship... huh..?? wat's goin on..??? i dunno.. ppl ask me how m i goin 2 ans.. both of dem r yl n den... last few weeks juz mention bout relationship topics... i noe both of dem r matured in both sidess..
haizzz.. i gt no comment in it... now myself gt my frustrated wif my own problemss.. don care n don bored.. bt it really related 2 my cg growing.. tat's wat i worried of...
2day some1 called me n told me she is sure both of dem r in a relationship... huh..?? wat's goin on..??? i dunno.. ppl ask me how m i goin 2 ans.. both of dem r yl n den... last few weeks juz mention bout relationship topics... i noe both of dem r matured in both sidess..
haizzz.. i gt no comment in it... now myself gt my frustrated wif my own problemss.. don care n don bored.. bt it really related 2 my cg growing.. tat's wat i worried of...
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
finally finish exam
yess.. finally.. finish my exam... =)
now my term break cut short 2 1 week oni.. so sad... my holidayss all gone... i wan go bck homee... i miss mlc... wuwuwu ='(
Next week 54C conference begins.. hahaha... for those who not yet register.. hurry up!!! Log On to www.54christ.org there is a video clips about Ps Jaykoopman trailer in youtube, u juz nid 2 log on to youtube n search fight4christ!!
Hope 2 see u all guys dere...!! =)
now my term break cut short 2 1 week oni.. so sad... my holidayss all gone... i wan go bck homee... i miss mlc... wuwuwu ='(
Next week 54C conference begins.. hahaha... for those who not yet register.. hurry up!!! Log On to www.54christ.org there is a video clips about Ps Jaykoopman trailer in youtube, u juz nid 2 log on to youtube n search fight4christ!!
Hope 2 see u all guys dere...!! =)
Friday, August 1, 2008
wat a bad day
1st of Aug... haha.. new day of da month.
bt den 2day.. ervyone mood is damm bad...for no reason kena scolded... !!!
Bad MoOdd... i'm enough with all this problemss.. i wanna get rid of it... !!! STOP IT !!! It's enough.........!!!!
bt den 2day.. ervyone mood is damm bad...for no reason kena scolded... !!!
Bad MoOdd... i'm enough with all this problemss.. i wanna get rid of it... !!! STOP IT !!! It's enough.........!!!!
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
we r the best....!!!!!!!
This is my Beloved Leng Chai Brothers -n- Leng Lui Sisters..We Gonna Shake the Whole PJ !!Tuesday, July 29, 2008
goshh.. examss
Oh.. no.. Exam is juz around the corner...
My Business Law.. i dunno hw m i goin 2 sit 4 tat exam...!! Abit Worried bout it.. not abit la.. actually is very worry bout tat paper.. wuwuwu ='(
CAn some 1 help me... !!! haizzz... dunno how 2 study tat subject lee....
My Business Law.. i dunno hw m i goin 2 sit 4 tat exam...!! Abit Worried bout it.. not abit la.. actually is very worry bout tat paper.. wuwuwu ='(
CAn some 1 help me... !!! haizzz... dunno how 2 study tat subject lee....
Sunday, July 27, 2008
1st Blog
Yeah... ShaLom !!
I'm Charmaine, this is my 1st blog in this blogspot ^^
That is quite a long time that i didnt write blog anymore.. Those Previous blog that i wrote all are in my friendster profile.
Supposingly i should be start studying for my coming exams in Aug. Oh .. Gosh.. i haven't really started yet.. Especially my Business Law subject, i don understand what it is talking about!! Even in class the lecturer taught it damm fast like a machine gun, should be bullet train i think. hehe!! It really nervous bout the exam.. although after exam there will be a sem break yeahh..!! n our church youth conference 54C! Is here again.. i cant believe is so fast, this is the 2nd conference our church did it..
By the way, My PJCHC church hv move to a new place ..
Praise the Lord !! Wow, i cant believe that God is so awesome -n- we started our 1st service dere on saturday 26/7/2008. The santuary is full ! Hallelujah ! I believe that God is starting to do miracles things is the church especially the youths!! In the last few weeks youth leader's prayers, i saw 4 words fr God in chinese " Yong Ru Jiao Hui " Amen !! Actually in the prayers I tHought I was dreaming away bt den after the prayers i get the confirmation from Amos -n- David, this is not a dream, this days will happen. I cant wait this revival fall upon us.!!
In my this year plan, i planned 2 fully commit myself in church, my serving n my cg. I've targeted my cg for 30 ppl this end of the year. Seriously i wann really spend my time with my cg members bt sadly i don hv a car here, i dunno the way. N there is alot of things i wanna do in my cg but i felt tat i got block or rejected .
27/7 is our py 1st service, after the service, We having YL Meeting. In the meeting i felt damm hurt, dey told me that pastor put me in the usher team as a leader 2 guide the youth, den i told him that i backup den i cant b usher, he told me tat backup oso can b usher, need to arrange can d. Bt den another person offer 2 be usher bt he don let, he said u nid 2 bcakup le.. is damm hurt!! i noe i don have a nice voice, sometimes even out of tune n i dunno the techniques of singing bt den i already do my very best to improve my voice..
I'm trying to improve myself in the praise n worship team, i dunno m i talented in music... like ntg i can done in music... =( Seriously, i LOVE dem very much, i'm trying my best to do everything... Oh... Lord, Plzz GUIDE ME!! SHOW ME UR WAY -n- PLZ HAVE YOUR WAY IN ME....
I'm Charmaine, this is my 1st blog in this blogspot ^^
That is quite a long time that i didnt write blog anymore.. Those Previous blog that i wrote all are in my friendster profile.
Supposingly i should be start studying for my coming exams in Aug. Oh .. Gosh.. i haven't really started yet.. Especially my Business Law subject, i don understand what it is talking about!! Even in class the lecturer taught it damm fast like a machine gun, should be bullet train i think. hehe!! It really nervous bout the exam.. although after exam there will be a sem break yeahh..!! n our church youth conference 54C! Is here again.. i cant believe is so fast, this is the 2nd conference our church did it..
By the way, My PJCHC church hv move to a new place ..
Praise the Lord !! Wow, i cant believe that God is so awesome -n- we started our 1st service dere on saturday 26/7/2008. The santuary is full ! Hallelujah ! I believe that God is starting to do miracles things is the church especially the youths!! In the last few weeks youth leader's prayers, i saw 4 words fr God in chinese " Yong Ru Jiao Hui " Amen !! Actually in the prayers I tHought I was dreaming away bt den after the prayers i get the confirmation from Amos -n- David, this is not a dream, this days will happen. I cant wait this revival fall upon us.!!
In my this year plan, i planned 2 fully commit myself in church, my serving n my cg. I've targeted my cg for 30 ppl this end of the year. Seriously i wann really spend my time with my cg members bt sadly i don hv a car here, i dunno the way. N there is alot of things i wanna do in my cg but i felt tat i got block or rejected .
27/7 is our py 1st service, after the service, We having YL Meeting. In the meeting i felt damm hurt, dey told me that pastor put me in the usher team as a leader 2 guide the youth, den i told him that i backup den i cant b usher, he told me tat backup oso can b usher, need to arrange can d. Bt den another person offer 2 be usher bt he don let, he said u nid 2 bcakup le.. is damm hurt!! i noe i don have a nice voice, sometimes even out of tune n i dunno the techniques of singing bt den i already do my very best to improve my voice..
I'm trying to improve myself in the praise n worship team, i dunno m i talented in music... like ntg i can done in music... =( Seriously, i LOVE dem very much, i'm trying my best to do everything... Oh... Lord, Plzz GUIDE ME!! SHOW ME UR WAY -n- PLZ HAVE YOUR WAY IN ME....
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